Posted on July 9, 2008 by d
she wanted to be thin,
so she melted clear away
but it doesn’t seem so clear
today
it doesn’t seem so clear
today…
Taken from :
“Carries On”
It’s not easy to be, me…”
©Cat Ginn ‘08
(Can be found in BPChicks Blog-May 200 
Late June:
“I wonder if she would change this? -Just for me, privately, if I asked.
It doesn’t quite fit me…well, nothing in my [...]
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Posted on July 7, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
by UM/TPB
I’ll make this first part quick. Kinda like Cliff notes only BP Chick notes. Same thing. Except Cliff notes are about books that we were suppose to read in school. Much of the time, we needed those Cliff notes to pass our English class. BP Chick notes are much the same but use language [...]
Filed under: Anorexia Nervosa, Eating Disorders, Family, I can't believe how much we fucking rule today..tomorro, I feel like breaking shit, I'm pissed off today, bipolar disorder, depression, doctors, drug abuse, failure, freak magnet, guilt, humor, isolation, lies, life, life problems, love and laughter, medication, medication side effects, memories, mental health, opinion, personal, pharmaceuticals, psychiatric medications, psychology, rant, secrets, self-esteem, seroquel | Tagged: depression, death, measuring emotions, losing a child, unable to cope with life, love affair with stranger, wrong number romance, happy happy pills, not of this earth | 13 Comments »
Posted on May 17, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
Numb to real thoughts or emotions. I’m OK with writing silly stuff that doesn’t matter at all in the long run. But, the part of my mind, soul, heart, etc. that means anything is gone/hiding/killed/abducted or something.
And…..”deep breath”……I have kept this to myself because it is the nature of my beast. I had an [...]
Filed under: Health, I can't believe how much we fucking rule today..tomorro, I feel like breaking shit, bipolar disorder, blogging, depression, doctors, failure, friends, guilt, health care, injustice, isolation, lies, life, mental health, my life sucks, personal, psychology, rant, secrets | Tagged: awards for bipolars, clubs for bipolars, depression, numb emotions | 50 Comments »
Posted on May 10, 2008 by d
I miss my oldest son right now…if he were here, (hadn’t moved away..abandoned me, and not at work to top things off….dammit), we’d probably quote this…at the same time.
Back with the starter husband, all I had to do was pick up a power tool and turn it on; he’d come running. That’s [...]
Filed under: doctors, failure, freak magnet, isolation, life, love and laughter, my life sucks, personal | Tagged: d needs her bf back for a night, do it yourself projects, home, I can't believe how much I don't rule today, I need a man around here, I wish I were magic, lawn & garden, single life | 5 Comments »
Posted on April 26, 2008 by d
This_isn’t_going_well
It is 4am, I’m “importing” our blog….uncool. Now I seem to look as if I am the author of all of our posts. The author names did not transfer over… (evidently the program cannot do that, now I am the fucking program)…and that is just for the ones that are importing, key word “are” [...]
Filed under: I feel like breaking shit, blogging, drug abuse, failure, guilt, insomnia, isolation, life, life problems, my life sucks, personal, pharmaceuticals | Tagged: blogging sucks, d needs a nap & her bf back for at least a night, meltdown @4am, seat of the pants blogging | 4 Comments »
Posted on April 18, 2008 by d
Two weeks ago I was at my neurologist’s office for my check-up. (I’ll leave out my trigeminal neuralgia rant on this guy for now) In the epilepsy department…he does okay.
He talks a lot. He likes to visit. He’s actually a nice guy. I have more of a problem with his office (it’s way [...]
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Posted on February 26, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
by UM
I’ve been soul searching, or maybe searching for my soul. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about who I am now. There have been periods in my life that I did know who I was. Who I cared for. What mattered to me. How much control I had over just about everything in my [...]
Filed under: Bulimia, Eating Disorders, Recovery, anorexia, bipolar disorder, creativity, depression, failure, friends, guilt, insomnia, isolation, life, life problems, love and laughter, mental health, personal, rant, self-esteem | Tagged: Bipolar thoughts, Bulimia, anorexia, self-esteem, isolation | 17 Comments »
Posted on February 23, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
Just a quick post to lighten the mood. Then, we can get back to serious self examination and exposing our “uglies”.
d….who the f*** is THE GUY who keeps ending up here with his rather, shall we say “strange as a snake with big tits” search terms?
does a car crash effect bi-polar
3
rights of bipolar people
2
red sexy [...]
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Posted on February 12, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
This post is for those of us who will “get it”. And, it’s also for anyone who has a close relationship with a BP person.
First….be aware that we look like you, shop like you, go to church like you, have jobs like you, but frankly, there are plenty of times that we do NOT [...]
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Posted on December 18, 2007 by d
Notice I said “things”
I guess I should have said my trusty DVD stash.
The “thing” I love most is to laugh until I cry.
I have people who never fail to make me do this; but what if they are busy?
When I am alone, usually these will give me that great [...]
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