Posted on July 18, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
Beginning To The End Of My Niceness
An update to an update on my journey of trying to be a good person. That’s what this post is about.
Wanna know where my phone is at the moment? Buried under a mound of pillows to stiffle the ring. Wanna know why? Because, I was nice to a [...]
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Posted on July 17, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
This is another update to the SIL Post.
Y’all made me do some self-assessment thinking with your comments and encouragement to help crack-head, dillusional, grief stricken SIL. I let myself be swayed by the image in my head of birds singing, butterflies landing on my shoulders, rainbows in a clear blue sky, and the voice of [...]
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Posted on July 9, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
When Depression Owns the Heart
A depression so deep it finds a way into the Soul,
and travels through every pore of your Heart.
A depression so large it encompasses every bit
of your Reality,
and leaves Reality a cloudy memory.
A depression so dense it compresses every will
you once had,
and bows you down to accept it as it’s own.
A [...]
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Posted on July 9, 2008 by d
she wanted to be thin,
so she melted clear away
but it doesn’t seem so clear
today
it doesn’t seem so clear
today…
Taken from :
“Carries On”
It’s not easy to be, me…”
©Cat Ginn ‘08
(Can be found in BPChicks Blog-May 200 
Late June:
“I wonder if she would change this? -Just for me, privately, if I asked.
It doesn’t quite fit me…well, nothing in my [...]
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Posted on July 7, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
by UM/TPB
I’ll make this first part quick. Kinda like Cliff notes only BP Chick notes. Same thing. Except Cliff notes are about books that we were suppose to read in school. Much of the time, we needed those Cliff notes to pass our English class. BP Chick notes are much the same but use language [...]
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Posted on May 17, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
Numb to real thoughts or emotions. I’m OK with writing silly stuff that doesn’t matter at all in the long run. But, the part of my mind, soul, heart, etc. that means anything is gone/hiding/killed/abducted or something.
And…..”deep breath”……I have kept this to myself because it is the nature of my beast. I had an [...]
Filed under: Health, I can't believe how much we fucking rule today..tomorro, I feel like breaking shit, bipolar disorder, blogging, depression, doctors, failure, friends, guilt, health care, injustice, isolation, lies, life, mental health, my life sucks, personal, psychology, rant, secrets | Tagged: awards for bipolars, clubs for bipolars, depression, numb emotions | 50 Comments »
Posted on April 28, 2008 by d
We’re kind of here…..but we’re kind of not.
Go figure.
We’re not re-directing.
My sacrificial dummy test (my own) blog I did one way is doing as expected….it’s not.
This one….WTF?
Well…okay then.
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Posted on April 26, 2008 by d
This_isn’t_going_well
It is 4am, I’m “importing” our blog….uncool. Now I seem to look as if I am the author of all of our posts. The author names did not transfer over… (evidently the program cannot do that, now I am the fucking program)…and that is just for the ones that are importing, key word “are” [...]
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Posted on March 18, 2008 by Cat
by the feline…..
The 14th of this month was my birthday… just last Friday… Know who forgot my birthday? My mother. ROFLMAO! She’s now officially forgotten most everyone in the family’s birthday. I believe the memory of every single person on this earth has been affected by the hormone’s in the chickens [...]
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Posted on February 26, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
by UM
I’ve been soul searching, or maybe searching for my soul. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about who I am now. There have been periods in my life that I did know who I was. Who I cared for. What mattered to me. How much control I had over just about everything in my [...]
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