Posted on July 17, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
This is another update to the SIL Post.
Y’all made me do some self-assessment thinking with your comments and encouragement to help crack-head, dillusional, grief stricken SIL. I let myself be swayed by the image in my head of birds singing, butterflies landing on my shoulders, rainbows in a clear blue sky, and the voice of [...]
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Posted on July 11, 2008 by Cat
I wish I was a spider
weaving a web of delight
weaving it in the daytime
weaving into the night
I’d weave a web so intricate
I’d spell your name in my silk
You’d be so impressed with my penmanship
you’d melt with my caliber of ilk
So spin your yarn as I spin too
my web of delight as I go
you never knew [...]
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Posted on July 9, 2008 by d
she wanted to be thin,
so she melted clear away
but it doesn’t seem so clear
today
it doesn’t seem so clear
today…
Taken from :
“Carries On”
It’s not easy to be, me…”
©Cat Ginn ‘08
(Can be found in BPChicks Blog-May 200 
Late June:
“I wonder if she would change this? -Just for me, privately, if I asked.
It doesn’t quite fit me…well, nothing in my [...]
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Posted on May 17, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
Numb to real thoughts or emotions. I’m OK with writing silly stuff that doesn’t matter at all in the long run. But, the part of my mind, soul, heart, etc. that means anything is gone/hiding/killed/abducted or something.
And…..”deep breath”……I have kept this to myself because it is the nature of my beast. I had an [...]
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Posted on April 29, 2008 by badkitty99
Hey…
I miss y’all. Too much. I love that no one gives me carp for not showing up around here for too long. Thank you. I couldnt live without you guys. Life’s been weird lately… I usually count on springtime to pull me out of the depressive shithole, and this year it’s taking longer than usual. [...]
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Posted on March 18, 2008 by Cat
by the feline…..
The 14th of this month was my birthday… just last Friday… Know who forgot my birthday? My mother. ROFLMAO! She’s now officially forgotten most everyone in the family’s birthday. I believe the memory of every single person on this earth has been affected by the hormone’s in the chickens [...]
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Posted on March 5, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
Posted on February 26, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
by UM
I’ve been soul searching, or maybe searching for my soul. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about who I am now. There have been periods in my life that I did know who I was. Who I cared for. What mattered to me. How much control I had over just about everything in my [...]
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Posted on February 23, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
Just a quick post to lighten the mood. Then, we can get back to serious self examination and exposing our “uglies”.
d….who the f*** is THE GUY who keeps ending up here with his rather, shall we say “strange as a snake with big tits” search terms?
does a car crash effect bi-polar
3
rights of bipolar people
2
red sexy [...]
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Posted on February 12, 2008 by trailerparkbarbie
This post is for those of us who will “get it”. And, it’s also for anyone who has a close relationship with a BP person.
First….be aware that we look like you, shop like you, go to church like you, have jobs like you, but frankly, there are plenty of times that we do NOT [...]
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UM
C/feline9
AC/badkitty
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