Do you? Do you really see her? Probably not but it’s not your fault. See….she’s a really fantastic imposter. Best damn faker in the world. Worthy of an Oscar.
She waves at you while passing by your house, neighbor. She smiles at people in the grocery store. She pretends to be listening to when you call, friends and family.
But, that’s all she is doing……pretending. Acting like her life is just fine. Not a thing amiss. She’s actually a train wreck. Maybe, even imagining what the cold, gray barrel of a 45 would feel like in her mouth while she is just going about her everyday business. Picturing the shocked looks and words of the people who know her….
“I can’t believe it. She seemed so normal. I just saw her this morning and she was smiling and talking and nothing appeared wrong with her.”
You’d never in a million years guess that she can’t wait to get back home, rush in her house, and shut and lock the door on the whole world. It’s only then that she can let the sobs or screams of despair that she has managed to keep silent and locked inside while out among you.
She feels like a failure. She feels like nothing matters any longer. She feels like….
she is just taking up space in an already too crowded world.
Who is she?
Your mother
Your sister
Your best friend
Your neighbor
……..she could be anybody.
Please, take the time to listen to that woman. Don’t dismiss her as just being moody or depressed or attention seeking or……
JUST DON’T DISMISS HER! She needs you. And, sometimes, she’s just not even able to tell you…to reach out….
but if she does….HELP HER!
Someone once said, “When you are drowning, it’s hard to holler for help when your mouth is already filled with water.”
how true…….my mouth is filled with water.
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